What’s My Name? Bill vs Ed

I had a crazy amazing dream yesterday.  I was going to see someone.  Along the way, I saw a good looking, polished stranger.  I knew that while he appeared to be nice, even helpful, he was caught up in some unsavory business.  So much so, he was trying to quickly help me locate the person I was meeting and then get back to what he was doing.  When we found the person I was seeking, he introduced the man as “Ed”, exchanged some pleasantries and took off.  I knew the man but didn’t think his name was “Ed”.  Still, I thought maybe I was mistaken and ended up referring to him twice by that name as I greeted and hugged him.  For a brief moment, I could view the exchange between the man and me.  While hugging me, he shook his head in an exasperated way as if to say “No, not Ed.”  I felt as if I disappointed him.  Then, during the embrace I remembered his name… Bill.  “Bill!” I said and I looked at him with such love (and a bit a regret for calling him by another name) – like when you really know someone and how awesome they are knowing that people are missing out.  Bill and I stood side by side with arms around each other’s waists leaning in on each other lovingly as a woman approached.  I instantly knew she was the stranger’s wife and felt so badly for her.  I began to testify about things in my life that I had experienced that revealed to her the truth about what she was going through.  While my heart hurt for her, I knew she would be okay because of Bill.

Now, let’s unpack some of the treasures from this dream.  The handsome stranger represents the Church.  He was caught up in adultery.  If you read the Bible, you will see that adultery and idolatry often go hand in hand.  It’s such an egregious thing that is often used symbolically to describe our wandering from the Lord (see Hosea) and these themes are discussed often.  People become unfaithful to the Lord, running off to worship false gods be them money, power, influence, etc..  The man’s preoccupation with getting back to his tryst represents that demonic influence and manipulation of doublemindedness.  They are so caught up in the world and can’t see what is really happening around them – thus him referring to Bill as “Ed”.  They are in a daze.  They can appear to be all together – even sweet – all the while leading a double life.  Ed comes from the name Edward which means “rich guard”.  Bill comes from the name William which has a few meanings all along the theme of a resolute or strong willed protector.  I want to also point out that Bill was actually Bill Gates.  Now, before we get off track, the Lord is punny, funny and poetic and has often used names in various ways to get a point across or to illustrate something to me (just like He does in the Bible).  Whether this dream has any meaning for the real Bill Gates, only the Lord knows.  However, He used this person’s name for a reason.  We know what a gate is and what it does and we also know Who the Gate is.  So if I was embracing the Resolute Protector of the Gate or the Gate Himself, I was hugging who?

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“I am the gate; whoever enters through me will be saved. They will come in and go out, and find pasture.”  (John 10:9  NIV)

So, now we can touch upon why calling Him by the wrong name was a little disappointing.  A lot of times, people operate under the idea that the Lord is a genie.  And, sometimes, He’s a money genie… (a little play on the “rich gate”).  There’s a lot of prosperity gospel out there.  But, let’s not get too legalistic here.  God does provide in that way, too, but that’s not what He should be known for.  And, let’s, too, note that riches can be a lot of things:  peace, joy, etc.  “Bill” looked like “Yeah, I can do that, too, but that’s not WHO I AM.”  In my spirit when I realized how He felt, my “eyes” saw Him so clearly that I remembered Him – The One who has cared and loved me through many trials.

“My ears had heard of you but now my eyes have seen you.”  (Job 42:5  NIV)

He is The One who has stood so steadfastly by my side (notice how we were standing and bonus, I was on His right side).  I wish I could adequately explain all of the feelings and intense love that washed over me when I remembered “Bill’s” name.  I was so grateful for Him that I had to tell this woman my testimony – to let her know Who was taking care of her.

We’re going to take a step back a bit and then I want to drive the point home with two other dreams.  See, the real wandering here is seeking His Hand and not Him.  In my dream I called him “Ed” twice.  I can think of two really big times in my life when that’s what I did – I sought His Hand and went back to my “life” like that stranger did.  God has many names, but in this scenario, it’s a bit like an adulterer calling Him by their lover’s name.  It’s a bit like using that faithful, loving person to get what you want and then going back to the supposed “good life”.  But, this time, when the same situation showed up again, I just threw down that “good life” (and let’s be really real, the Lord brought me to my knees here) and I said “No more.  I can’t do this again.  I want this fixed and I want it done the right way.  I want to do this with you, Lord.  Whatever You say.  And, this time, I’m not letting You go and please don’t let me.”  And that is what’s been going on.  I started by reading His Word and then wanting to know about Him.  I’ve stumbled.  I’ve struggled.  I’ve wept and wailed and stomped my foot.  But, I don’t just know of Him anymore.  I know Him in ways I didn’t before.  He’s been better to me and loved me more than anyone ever has or ever could in my whole life.  And I love Him.  It’s been hard.  But, seeking Him and not just His Hand is the smartest thing I have EVER done in my whole life.

“I sought the LORD, and he answered me; he delivered me from all my fears.”  (Psalm 34:4  NIV)

The Name Game

Now… to the two dreams and then we will round the bases.  I’m just going to give the highlights.  I had two dreams where I was in a jam of some sort.  The first one I had last summer.  A man named Ted helped me clean up a mess I had made in a 7-Eleven (catch the name of the store).  I spilled a drink.  A few days ago, playing with the same theme, I was in a grocery check out line about to pay someone else’s bill I’d been stuck with when a woman named Abby showed up to pay it.  Ted comes from Theodore which means “God’s gift” and Abby comes from Abigail which means “God’s joy”.  Both people in the dream were big.  I’m a petite woman so they made me feel small by comparison.  They both showed up big when I needed them and took care of a problem I felt responsible for.  In both scenarios (despite my spilling the drink), the “messes” weren’t really mine to clean up.  Both of these dreams go back to the idea of who He is.  In the first dream, God’s Gift was cleaning up sin and not necessarily my own – Grace.  He paid off a spiritual debt I could not pay.  In the second, it was God’s joy and good pleasure to clean up a financial debt.  I sought Him first and then His Hand took care of my other needs.  See what He did there with the names!?!?

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On the 2’s and 3’s

There is a prophetic word here for two people… maybe three.  I, personally, have been on what I believe is a three year cycle this third time around.  In the Bible there are various instances that end with a rebirth, a new thing or an open door on a third day or year.  My last two years have felt a bit Job-ish and a lot like Joseph in the prison.  Remember after two full years, Joseph was remembered and promoted (Genesis 41).  He gives God glory (verse 16), helps another and is given a highly respected position.  Remember, too, that Joseph told Pharaoh that because God showed him two versions of that dream, He was intending to do what He was showing him (verse 32, See the Name Game above … 2x)

Joseph was 30 (another 3) when he was remembered.  Now, I’m not 30.  I just recently turned 40.  But as I was studying the significance of 40 in Judaism, I came across some interesting information.  40 means transition, change, renewals and new beginnings.  When one turns 40, it is believed you gain another level of wisdom.  Let me also bring your attention to the fact that we just started the new Hebrew month of Nisan – the month of miracles and a new year.  A LOT of significant biblical events took place in this month.  We also just had a new moon.  New, new, new!  So, if you are the “me” in this dream and are standing beside the gate, I believe it’s about to open.  Remember the “password”.  Reflect on Who He is and what He has done.  Praise Him.

A Word to the Wise

If you are the lady in the dream, seek Him.  Period.  Come to know Him, seek wisdom that is worth more than rubies (see Proverbs 8:10-11) and you will see His Hand that comes bearing gifts.  She represents the people that don’t know Him and in some ways, the unsaved world and the sleeping Church.

“But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well.”  (Matthew 6:33  NIV)

“Ask, and it will be given to you; seek, and you will find; knock, and it will be opened to you.  For everyone who asks receives, and he who seeks finds, and to him who knocks it will be opened.  Or what man is there among you who, if his son asks for bread, will give him a stone?  Or if he asks for a fish, will he give him a serpent?  If you then, being evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your Father who is in heaven give good things to those who ask Him!”  (Matthew 7:7-11  NIV)

“They will receive blessing from the Lord and vindication from God their Savior.  Such is the generation of those who seek him, who seek your face, God of Jacob.”  (Psalm 24:5-6  NIV)


My testimony helped shed light on things for her and introduced her to the One who can do more than she could ever imagine.

“And I pray that you, being rooted and established in love, may have power, together with all the Lord’s holy people, to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ, and to know this love that surpasses knowledge—that you may be filled to the measure of all the fullness of God.

Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us, to him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, for ever and ever! Amen.”  (Ephesians 3:17b-21  NIV)

And, oh, to the other “me’s” out there, that’s part of the gig, too.  We don’t just go through stuff for ourselves.  It’s to help others as well.  Shine your light in the darkness to help others see.  Point them to the straight and narrow path of the True Gate.

“You are the light of the world. A town built on a hill cannot be hidden.  Neither do people light a lamp and put it under a bowl. Instead they put it on its stand, and it gives light to everyone in the house.  In the same way, let your light shine before others, that they may see your good deeds and glorify your Father in heaven.  (Matthew 5:14-16  NIV)

And if you’re a handsome stranger who has gotten off track, come get reacquainted.  He still remembers your name.  You are His and He’s waiting for you.

“They refused to listen, And did not remember Your wondrous deeds which You had performed among them; So they became stubborn and appointed a leader to return to their slavery in Egypt But You are a God of forgiveness, Gracious and compassionate, Slow to anger and abounding in lovingkindness; And You did not forsake them.”  (Nehemiah 9:17 NIV)

“But now the Lord Who made you, O Jacob, and He Who made you, O Israel, says, “Do not be afraid. For I have bought you and made you free. I have called you by name. You are Mine!” (Isaiah 43:1 NIV)








Let’s Dance

“What I tell you in the dark, speak in the daylight; what is whispered in your ear, proclaim from the roofs.”  (Matthew 10:27 NIV)

It’s always funny what the Holy Spirit will use (and when) to convey a message.  But there I was sitting in the pew listening to my pastor when I realized the chorus of  “Dancing in the Dark” by Bruce Springsteen was on replay in the back of my mind.  So, I do what I always do.  I grab a pen and make a note and get ready for some conversation and revelation.

I knew instantly what the fire was.  It’s revival.  It’s the Holy Spirit.  After all, we were discussing Acts 2.  And I get we’re called to be sparks.  I am here for that!  I want to see the Holy Spirit get ahold of a room and the world like that.  But that last line… Did I hear that right?  What does that mean?

“In the same way let your light shine before others that they may see your good deeds and glorify your Father in heaven.”  (Matthew 5:16 NIV)

It’s like finding joy and living it out loud before the dark of the world.  It’s the silent sermon you preach by the way you live and the way you love.  Then He reminded me of that Hal David song I kept running across over the summer… “What the World Needs Now Is Love.”

“Dear friends, let us love one another, for love comes from God. Everyone who loves has been born of God and knows God.”  (1 John 4:7) 

“Therefore, as God’s chosen people, holy and dearly loved, clothe yourselves with compassion, kindness, humility, gentleness and patience.  Bear with each other and forgive one another if any of you has a grievance against someone.  Forgive as the Lord forgave you.   And over all these virtues put on love, which binds them all together in perfect unity.” (Colossians 3:12-14)

“Keep on loving one another as brothers and sisters.”  (Hebrews 13:1  NIV)

“Let all that you do be done in love.” (1 Corinthians 16:14  ESV)

There are so many more.  And if we are honest, it’s an area in which we could be doing better.  We need to be demonstrating that pure, notion shattering, agape love that Jesus showed us in the gospels paying close attention to how He treated the ones others felt were beneath them and the ones who weren’t good to Him.

“The light shines in the darkness, and the dark has not overcome it.”  (John 1:5 NIV)

So that Light is alive and well.  It has not and will not be conquered.  In fact, He is sitting at the right hand of the Father!  And I take the position that if the Holy Spirit is talking to me about unity and revival, the Lord is intending to hold that up to the world through His Church.  He’s looking for His “guns for hire” – those with willing spirits, those ready to spark so that He can light up the dark with the flame of His perfect love.  He is looking for His Bride.

“My dove in the clefts of the rock, in the hiding places on the mountainside, show me your face, let me hear your voice; for your voice is sweet, and your face is lovely.” (Song of Solomon 2:14  NIV)

See, it’s the thing that is desperately needed and the thing that will catch.  It’s one of the most powerful tools we have in the physical and spiritual realms.  I mean, God IS love!  Get several sparks going and watch it spread like wildfire!  Most people are looking for kindness, to be thought of, remembered, healed… to be loved – really loved.  They are looking for Him.  They need to see Him.  They need to hear about Him and they need to see Him at work in your life.  We need to show Him to this world by loving bravely, boldly, joyfully, unabashedly, shamelessly and unapologetically…  even if we’re just…







Good News in the news

Wow!  Seeing confirmation of the Lord’s Word always gives me the feels.  Since my last post two days ago, a friend contacted me with a “re” word that showed up on her facebook feed.


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Today, it hit me that the word she saw was mostly likely a word from Him .  It was her
“re” word and maybe you, too, will be given one.  So, if you see any “re” words go to Him in prayer and ask Him is it for you and wait for an answer. (1 John 4:1)

Then, another sweet friend of mine Reyna (check out her encouraging prophetic words here ) sent me the link to this story:


A quick synopsis of the story is a brother visiting his sister witnessed her dog being snatched up by an eagle.  They thought the dog was a goner after searching and finding no sign of the pup.  Then, lo and behold, the little furbaby turns up four miles away alive and well.  Feel good story, right?  Sure, they say it’s a miracle and that’s great news, but what’s so confirming about that?

Well, it’s in the details.  Those with eyes to see… The pup was snatched up by a predator (see Job 9:26 or the treacherous serpent who lures in Genesis 3).  Then, there’s Wizard of Oz reference that made me chuckle… Dorothy being snatched up by a storm???  (See also previous post  “Leaving Oz”)  Then, Zoey (in Greek means “life” as in spiritual life not the bios form of life) is dropped “a full four miles away”.  Four is a Hebrew number of completeness and for some represents a door.  So after going on a full complete journey is found on some back roads (wilderness) by a woman named Christina (derived from the Hebrew word “Messiah” meaning follower of Christ).  The 8 lb. Bichon Frise (8 = resurrection) is revived after a little TLC from Christina and through the open door that is social media is found and returned home to her owners.  Sounds quite similar to the story of the Prodigal Son (Luke 15:11-32) to me!

As I was looking for the link online to post the story, I also came across this one:


Another lost pooch!  Eagles, illustrative of God’s care in this case (see Deuteronomy 32:11), helped find this one!  I’m happy to say, she, too, after about two days, is back home!  What stands out about this to me is how I was just reading last night in Genesis 41 that after two years Joseph is remembered and called forth to interpret a dream for Pharaoh.  In verse 32 it says “The reason the dream was given to Pharaoh in two forms is that the matter has been firmly decided by God, and God will do it soon.”  You may scoff at these lost dog and eagle stories and think I’m reaching, but my heart is leaping!  I want to give the Lord His due Glory!  The lost are coming home!  Praise the Lord! Talk about hope!  2018 is off to a wondrous start!

Oh and it’s snowing here.  Sometimes a goose just ain’t a goose and snow just ain’t atmospheric water vapor frozen into ice crystals and falling in light white flakes or lying on the ground as a white layer.  Sometimes, it’s a…




“Praise the LORD! Oh give thanks to the LORD, for He is good; For His lovingkindness is everlasting.” (Psalm 106:1)



2018: Ready? (Re)set. Hope!

So, Happy New Year!  A new year has begun.  2018 is here.

Reviewing the past few years, “joy” always seems to be the word going forward.  “Find joy”, “Hold on to joy”…  So, honestly, I thought it would be “an abundance of joy”.  Yes, of course, I want that for you, but the themes I’ve been given seem to be about “hope”.

A few months back, I heard “collision of visions” in my spirit clear as day.  I had no idea what that meant, but it sounded kind of cool.  Up until that point, I would just see or hear words like “cardinal”, “arrows”, “butterfly”…  I thought, “Okay, but what does it mean?”


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It seemed like I was always waiting for an answer, or that maybe… I wasn’t bright enough to figure it out.  I eventually just made lists of the words and trusted He would tell me in His time.  Once I heard that phrase, the pieces started falling into place.  The first thing I noticed was that the prophetic words of others started to become more uniform.  The next was that as these seemingly disjointed words of mine collided, they were actually forming a more complete picture.  Fascinatingly enough, they are layered.  So each time I come back, it has a deeper meaning as new combinations of lists collide and add a different context.  And, as I discuss these ideas with others He’s seen fit to cross my path, I see how they work in a much larger scale.

Amongst the prophetic, many, like I, have been given “re” words:  revival, restoration, reconciliation, etc. and they all, in their own way, talk about hope or hopeful expectation.  I have been given quite a few, as well.  Two that have shown up repeatedly at this time of the year are “reformation” and “reset”.  It’s winter.  We have Christmas and New Year’s in the same month.  Both cause us to look back and reflect.  What didn’t go so well that I hope gets better?  What could I have done better that I can work on going forward?  What do I want and need as I advance?

So, let’s like at these.  “Reformation” – you are probably looking at this in the Martin Luther sense “to reform” or “to make changes”.  And, while it does play into it (the Lord is very punny; totally look into what Martin Luther did with his list.  It was yet another time nail driven into wood shook up our world. Catch that), when I saw “reformation” I saw this:  Re-formation.  As in, realignment.  As in this:




Yep, I know this is an obvious sight this time of year.  And, during this time of reflection, it SHOULD be an obvious call in our spirits to realign and get into the Lord’s formation – especially because He is doing something new. (Isaiah 43:19).  It’s a regular prayer of mine for fresh revelation, wisdom and discernment because I want to move with Him.  What’s going on in Hollywood (and the like) is a hint of what’s to come.  Those in positions of power who have abused and oppressed are being moved out of position making way for the new (“to change/reform”).  And, like this image shows,  “collision” in the phrase given to me is harkening to unity.  Those geese are actually working together.  They fly in such a way as to conserve energy and they take turns being the lead.  They can keep track of each other on their path to their destination.  If one falls ill, two or more stay behind to protect it.  Sometimes, a goose just ain’t a goose, folks.  😉  He’s intentional like that.

Which brings me to “reset”.  I’m not going to bother to define that.  We know what that means.  Each new year, new day and new minute is always an opportunity to start over.  It’s a blank canvas.  That’s why I LOVE snow.  For that short time before the plows come out or people come out to play, it is lovely, clean and quiet.  All seems right with the world and I feel peace.  In a couple of instances in the bible snow is used to illustrate the reset I’m seeing:  those coming to Christ and one close to my heart – the return of the prodigals.

“Purge me with hyssop, and I shall be clean; Wash me, and I shall be whiter than snow.” (Psalm 51:6-7)

“Come now, and let us reason together, saith the Lord: though your sins be as scarlet, they shall be as white as snow; though they be red like crimson, they shall be as wool.” (Isaiah 1:18)

So, these “re” words say to me, “Unify with the Lord’s Will and be willing to move to the front and lead or fall back as needed for the good of the Kingdom – and don’t forget the lost, fallen or backslidden.”  After all, Someone remembered you and never left you behind.

In this unity, in these “re” words of mine and others, I see hope.  Hope for something better, greater and bigger than we can imagine.  Hope that will make our souls sing as prayers are answered and heart’s desires are fulfilled.  Hope that will make the battle worth it.  Hope that will shine out and draw others near.  Our God does God-sized stuff.  So when He wants us to hope, something mind-blowing is coming.  When “hope” is a word for the year, it’s not going to be run-of-the-mill New Year positivity that will fizzle out before the end of the ymonth with recycled resolutions.  No, it’s going to be purposeful, impactful and significant.

“For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans for welfare and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope.” (Jeremiah 29:11)

So, get ready.




Like the little children

Wow!  I’m up, Lord.  I’m up!  Funny how a little thing like a text can get you up and running.  lol  (Inside joke, long story) But… here I am and here we go!

“Who is the greatest in the kingdom of heaven?”  He called a little child and had him stand among them.  And he said “I tell you the truth, unless you change and become like little children, you will never enter the kingdom of heaven.  Therefore, whoever humbles himself like this child is the greatest in the kingdom of heaven.”  (Matthew 18:1b-4  NIV)

Now, there is a lot going on here.  We tend to think of humble as bowing in deference to the Lord, but let’s examine the behavior of children.  When little kids are around people, especially those they are familiar with, notice what they do.  They ask questions.  They invade your personal space – lol – I’m a mom.  My kids are all over me all the time.  My youngest  are toddlers and that’s a whole ‘nother level of invasion.  They poke; they prod.  They climb in my lap.  They get nose to nose.  They examine every little mole and freckle.  They play with my hands, my hair, my earrings, etc.  They tell me I’m pretty, ask about scratches… I also worked in a daycare as a teen in the toddler/pre-K room.  It was no different.  I had a little girl whose favorite thing to do daily was to sit in my lap and play with and stare at my hands.

What if we went to the Lord like this?  We humble ourselves differently.  We allow ourselves to be free and unencumbered like children and climb in His lap or put His arm around us and look at that boo-boo on His hands and say “I’m sorry” and kiss it to make it better like little kids do when they see Mommy’s owie.  What if we said, “I love You.  You are so beautiful” just because?  What if we touched the hem of His garment?  What if we tried to look at His eyes?  What if?  What if He totally delighted in that?  How would that change you, your relationship with Him, your outlook  on Him… your life?  What if He goes from being God to also being Abba or Daddy?

I used to cringe at people calling Him “Daddy”.  Are you nuts?!?  That’s the Almighty!!! I would even tell Him, “Lord, I might call you Father, but that’s Team Too Much.  That’s not showing enough respect.  I’ve got a healthy fear and just… wow…” And, then He used my children against me.

My oldest started in on this thing calling me “Mother” and one of the littles started calling me “Mom”.  If you know me, this gets under my skin like you wouldn’t believe.  No judgement on anyone who is called by these names; but, long before I ever had a kid, I knew I was to be called Mommy and I am to always be called Mommy even when I’m old and gray and on a stick.  I’m still Mommy no matter what.  So, finally, one day, I shot my oldest The Look as she once again referred to me as “Mother”.  “Why does that bother you and why can she call you Mom?” I said to her, “She can’t and I don’t like it.  They sound too formal.  They put a distance between us.  I’m your mommy!”  Then I heard God chuckle.


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God’s got jokes.  Well played, Lord.  Well played.

The floodgates of Awesome washed in.  He became my DADDY in that moment and took my walk to a whole new level.  “DADDY loves me.”  Wow!  Now if you are a Daddy’s Girl and I am – I have an awesome dad (in fact, I still call him “Daddy”.  The Lord blessed me with this awesome man so I could finally get a clue about the way He loves me, too) – then you know how powerful that really is.  That confidence in knowing you are Daddy’s Girl with the Lord, changes the game.  NOW the devil needs to really watch out.  He is messing with His baby!  Any Mama and Papa Bears out there?  Then you already know…

And, being a Daddy’s Girl (or a Daddy’s Boy) allows for a little spoiling (Ephesians 3:20, anyone?), a lot of attention and affection…  you get to experience His love in a whole new way.  It’s amazing!  Think about it.  Eden – that was it, wasn’t it?  It was created as a place for God to spend time with and delight in His children.  That’s what heaven is about, delighting and being unencumbered with the Lord.  No more evil, hurt, sick or yuck to contend with.  You get Him all to yourself and He gets you all to Himself!  Um… YAY!!!  Yes, please!  And, this Daddy’s Girl thing, this powerful knowledge that He is also my Daddy the way little girls look at Daddy (strong, brave, awesome, the coolest) has taken my prayer warrior game up a notch, too!

This brings to mind another image.  In 2 Samuel 6, King David stepped outside of the Lord (sort of doing what I was) trying to give Him this formal style honor by building some cart to carry the Ark of the Lord to Jerusalem and it didn’t go so well (You can read all about that) – “Doing a right thing in a wrong way” my bible has entitled it – David became afraid and left the Ark behind in the house of Obed-Edom.  Consequently, the house was blessed.  David heard of the blessing and went to retrieve the Ark.  He offered a sacrifice and began dancing in front of it:

David, wearing a linen, ephod, danced before the Lord with all his might, while he and the entire house of Israel brought up the ark  of the Lord with shouts and the sound of trumpets.  (2 Samuel 6:14-15  NIV)

Now, David is a king and he is essentially dancing around in front of the Lord and all these people in his underwear.  We go from “I’m going to build You this fancy cart” to I’m dancing in my drawers out in public… yeah.  His wife Michal saw it and was none to0 pleased.

“How the king of Israel has distinguished himself today, disrobing in the sight of the slave girls of his servants as any vulgar fellow would!”  (2 Samuel 6:20  NIV)

Now, I can’t get mad.  I don’t blame her on the surface.  Who wants their man dancing around in his undies in front of the ladies?  And, it’s probably a little embarrassing.  I mean, who does that?  David answers:

“It was before the Lord, who chose me rather than your father or anyone from his house when he appointed me ruler over the Lord’s people Israel – I will celebrate before the Lord.  I will become even more undignified than this, and I will be humiliated in my own eyes.  But by these slave girls you spoke of, I will be held in honor.”  (2 Samuel 6:21-22 NIV)

Well, BOOM!  Michal lost focus.  Pride took over.  The Lord was coming to dwell with them.  Forget that, “he’s acting like a fool, embarrassing me in front of some slave girls…  We’re royalty!”  Did she not see the last time taking that exulted attitude ended in tragedy?  Did she not see what happened to her own father?  Now, I’m not puppy piling on her.  I would argue we have all been guilty of this, putting on churchly airs… I’ll come back to that.

David said, “I’m sold out to the Lord.  I’ll act like an even bigger fool because I am so grateful for his blessing and He’ll honor that.”  Ever had that moment, looking like a fool to the world because you are believing in the Lord?  I did.  I have practically been called crazy, even looked upon as a fragile wretch because I refused to move from a promise the Lord gave me.  It looks like nothing is changing, but the Lord basically told me it’s gotta go down that way so when it comes to pass, they’ll know it’s Him.  He’ll get the glory and it’ll will change their whole concept of who He is.  That was a rough night, but I stood my ground.  My Daddy’s got me and He doesn’t lie.  So, like David, I don’t answer to man and I’ll keep looking like a fool because I know what I know.  I know Who He is (I AM, not I Might or Maybe) and what He said.  And when it happens, I’ll be vindicated and honored; He’ll get His glory and hopefully, they’ll know what I know, too.

So, let’s go back to Michal and tie this into our little children theme.  I have these song lyrics stuck in my head:

Have fun again, I want you to have fun;  Just like the little children, like the little children; Know how they have fun

This is from a song called “Have Fun Again” by Diana Ross from her Diana album.  Solid album, by the way.

Michal was caught up in the look of something.  Little kids don’t do that.  Put on music.  Watch them.  They just start dancing and singing and sometimes it looks like they are having fits.  They don’t care.  They are so happy!  Psalm 8:2 says “From the lips of children and infants you have ordained praise because of your enemies, to silence the foe and the avenger.” (NIV)  Like, who!  He takes their little praise and anoints it with power to shut the enemy down!  See, at that age, the world hasn’t messed with their perception.  If we say, “God is bigger than the devil”, they say “okay”. Done.  Faith game on point – where we need to be.  The enemy needs us to think he is equal to God in every way.  That way, he can keep running game on us and inhibit us from all the power and the authority God gives His children to shut him down.  What if we switched gears and thought like the little children.  What if we put on praise music and let go like they do, like David did without worrying about what it looks like.  What if we came freely before the throne with praise – free ourselves from this notion of “proper” worship?

I did just that and watched my kids dance and sing and heard “Why don’t you do that?  I know life is hard right now, but why don’t you just dance and sing like them?  Have some fun.  Enjoy your life.  Today is the day that I have made, rejoice and be glad in it.”  And, yes, I’ve been in the thick of it, but I can still have joy, still live, still have fun and show Him gratitude for what I have.  It doesn’t matter who’s looking because when Jesus comes, no one is going to be worried about me singing in the rain and jumping in puddles with my kids when my life was topsy-turvy.  No one is going to be worried that I let some hallelujahs fly in church that one day because I was in the Spirit – if you can’t do that in His house, this should give you cause for pause.  The Spirit should be welcome in His house and to operate as he is instructed by the Lord.

And, Lord!  Whew!  Think of the damage you are doing to the enemy camp when (as my child says during her rendition of Eenie Meenie Minie Mo) you “let your hollers go”!  If He is anointing their praise, what will He do with yours as you humble yourself and come to Him and love on Him and praise Him in this childlike state.?  Must feel like a crazy earthquake with tornadic activity and flooding going on there.  Just pure chaos!  Oh, well…





Leaving Oz


The Wizard of Oz is quite the classic.  An obvious biblical parallel could be made with the Prodigal Son (Luke 15:11-32).  In fact, Veggie Tales did and did so beautifully.  It’s called “The Wonderful Wizard of Ha’s”.  Check it out.  That being said, I won’t go too deeply into it, but let’s set the scene.  Think of Dorothy’s trip to this wondrous place as her heeding the siren song into death that sin really is.  She’s indulged, she’s run into trouble and found herself in battle and is looking for some pay off, something to make this worth it, bless it even and finds… NADA!

“Pay no attention to that man behind the curtain!” says that big, loud, intimidating voice trying to keep you from seeing that desperate, busy little being (he’s not as big as he’d have you think and he is CERTAINLY smaller than the Lord) trying to keep the crumbling illusion going – trying to keep you from the truth.

And, isn’t that basically what the enemy does?  When you realize all that glitters ain’t gold; when you realize you’ve been duped; that that Jesus guy has something better for you!?!  He gets loud.  He gets intimidating.  He accuses.  He threatens.  He distracts.  He magnifies.  He creates chaos.  He denigrates and degrades.  HE LIES!  He gets busy pushing any and every button he can behind that curtain to keep you enslaved in Oz.

Then, there’s Jesus.  He gave his life on the cross and ripped that curtain!  (Matthew 27:51)  He’s showing you the truth!  He’s exposing the root of your problem – one of the things the devil doesn’t want you to see.  The devil wants you caught up in other’s faults, the mean words spoken, bad attitudes… anything to try to justify the poor choices made, to distract you from the why’s and how’s behind the problem.  It’s usually a hurt that needs healing, shame, lack of identity… it’s always deeper than what’s visible on the surface.  It’s something that spiritual eyes can see.  Only, most of us are blind to it.  But, I know a guy who works miracles on visual issues. (C’mon, I had to!  lol)  He’s a healer and he’s got solutions!

Not only does the enemy want you blinded to the root of your issue, he REALLY wants you to miss your exit out of Oz and back to the Father who’s waiting for you to come home.   He wants you to believe you are such a wretched mess, He will NEVER take you back – that He could never love you and to throw any notion of spending eternity with Him right out the window!  But, he’s a liar and there is no truth in him.  Just like the Prodigal Son’s father was waiting on him, welcoming him back with a celebration, so, too, is your Heavenly Father.  In fact, just flip everything the devil says and you will have a clearer picture.  You’ll feel the chains start breaking.

Romans 8:38-39 (ESV) says, “For I am sure that neither death nor life, nor angels nor rulers, nor things present nor things to come, nor powers, nor height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God in Christ Jesus our Lord.”

That sacrifice on the cross is your path back.  You need to quit listening to that big, scary voice.  See through the illusion.  Believe the truth that salvation and forgiveness is a freely given gift from God.  Accept it.  Repent and be forgiven – forgive yourself, too, and take that next step back home.  Jesus knows and is The Way.

So, before I go… I wrote this on 7/24.  I’m a very busy mom and it’s easier for me to post at night.  Awesomely, today (7/25) I came across a wonderful confirmation of this on fb live.  If you have facebook and are a prodigal, you’ve backslidden… I think this will bless and encourage you.


Look for the video entitled “30 Days of Favor, Day 25, Lost Favor Found, Hope for Prodigals”

Praying for you, standing with you and cheering you on…





5777 and 61

This is the Hebrew year 5777.  The year of the sword.  It’s well worth researching.  Since approximately March or April of this year I have been seeing the number 61 consistently.  Honestly, I don’t remember how I happened upon it (I’m thinking a prophetic word I read somewhere), but at some point, I came to realize it was a reference to Isaiah 61.  I love the book of Isaiah.  It’s an amazing and powerful read.  Chapter 61 is “The Year of the Lord’s Favor”.  I really feel it is closely tied to this current year.  It speaks deeply to me, personally, about the giant I’ve faced, the storm I’m weathering with the Lord, my purpose…  But a few weeks ago, it hit me funny – that first verse:

The Spirit of the Sovereign Lord is on me, because the Lord has anointed me to proclaim good news to the poor.  He has sent me to bind up the brokenhearted, to proclaim freedom for the captives and release from darkness for the prisoners…

Now, obviously “Jesus, Jesus, Jesus!” this screams.  And, it’s also our call as Believers.  But, this time, it reads differently – like a current prophetic word.  I felt I was to post about this chapter sometime back – almost like a heralding; but, admittedly, my nerves took over.  (Thank you, God, for being patient.)  I didn’t know what to say or why.  The why for tonight is obedience and I trust Him for the rest.  (Don’t those two things seem to go hand in hand, trust and obedience?)  But, as frequently as I see “61” (as recently as last night at the fair of all places… lol) or its verses showing up all around me, something must be playing out or about to.

It’s a very encouraging chapter, especially for those who have been struggling.  If it’s for you, you will know it.  Rejoice!  Unsure?  Ask.  He’ll confirm it.

Praying His blessings and favor, goodnight.

Little Thieves

Funny how little obedience gets things going.  I’ve been praying for more wisdom from the Holy Spirit and today I woke up with all sorts of things dropped on me.

One such thing was what I gleaned from an interaction with my children.  My two youngest were running around playing.  They’ve been playing “Police” – which is basically Cops & Robbers.  It usually entails them crying “Thief!” and chasing a suspect of some sort.  This has been going on for a few days.  Today they were at it and it seems they were exasperated with the imaginary situation.  When I asked one of them what was going on, she looked and me and said “The thieves just keep coming and coming!”  I chuckled and said “Yes, they do.”  Suddenly, my oldest informed me that the thieves they catch are microscopic.  Odd, but yes, they often are.

It’s the little thieves that we don’t notice, that we ignore, that do a lot of damage.  It’s the little things that we allow to steal our joy, the little sin that takes root that turns into a big problem…   Isn’t that like the thief, that ancient serpent slithering in with a seemingly innocent question?  John 10:10 states “The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy.”  It’s never really small with him.  He’s got big plans and he’s always on the prowl.

So, what are we to do?  1 Peter 5:8 says to “be alert and of sober mind”.  This is where asking for wisdom and discernment is key.  This will give you eyes to see and ears to hear.  It will help you decide if those thoughts are really yours,  if that thing that person said was really all that offensive, if that seemingly innocent invitation to grab some coffee is really just coffee…  And if the little thieves are already on the loose?  Round those suckers up!

Catch for us the foxes, the little foxes that ruin the vineyards, our vineyards that are in bloom.  (Songs of Solomon 2:15)

Discern, discern, discern and then GET TO WORK!  God has given you the tools!  The Holy Spirit will guide!  Call on the name of the Lord!  Bind up and cast out!  Take those thoughts captive!  Lay your problems at the feet of the Lord!

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If you’re being tempted, know your weakness and call on the Lord.  He will make you strong.  He will provide the out and he can deliver you.  (1 Cor. 10:13)  Thinking negative?  Feeling angry?  Stop!  Discern the trigger.  Refuse to be offended.  Refuse to be angry.  When I catch myself and say “I’m not doing this!”  I’ll change the subject, switch gears, find something else to do.  (Philippians 4:8)  No joke, it’s hard.  I had to be taught.  (And, thank God for Jesus, he did!)  But, what I don’t do is sweep it under the rug.  I don’t ignore it.  I deal with it by praying over it and walking it out with the Lord.  I ask for revelation and strategies to deal.  See, I don’t just want to round up the thieves, I want them on lockdown!  I’m not trying to give the enemy a foothold.  My joy was too hard to come by to just hand it over to some petty thief!

BOTTOM LINE:  seek and ye shall find.  Read your bible and pray.  He equips us for all we’re up against – even giants!  😉

You’re hereby deputized!  Round ’em up!  lol

For the Ladies…

Hello.  It’s been awhile.  I’ve been struggling with what to write; some days, the courage to write and I have also been working on the Instagram account.  But, I wanted to share a beautiful dream the Lord sent me that I hope will encourage and excite you.

First, I will tell the dream and then get into what I feel it means.  Four nights in row I had a dream with a specific prominent color.  Three of the four, I felt were personally for me but night number two, I felt it was for all of God’s daughters.

I was at a bridal shower.  It was around sunset.  The sky was the most beautiful rosey pink, almost a bubble gum pink color.  I didn’t know the bride and honestly, she didn’t make a good impression – she wasn’t welcoming and the party was for show.  She had this finale for her shower.  The plan was for an airplane or something to drop gift bags to all of the women in attendance.  She darted off somewhere and I never saw her again.  While I was ready to just leave, I was intrigued.  I looked up and I got the feeling God took over and decided to deliver His own gifts instead.  The sheer quantity was beyond anything a plane could deliver.  Floating from the sky were these beautiful blush/baby pink handbags.  Against the rose of the sky, it was breathtaking.  They were amply sized, well made and unique – no two alike.  All the women were excited to get them.  While I didn’t see what was in them, they were filled with things – tools, if you will – specifically for each woman.

I did some research on the major items and themes in dream: colors, purses, etc.  The gifts were absolutely from God because they were abundant, quality and tailor made for each woman.  I was under the impression the “bride” just wanted people there so she wouldn’t have individualized the gifts.

Pink (biblically speaking) represents a heart of flesh, a right relationship with God, joy and love – all apparent in the dream.  The gifts were for HIS daughters.  We were happy to get them and since all good things come from God (James 1:17) and He is love (1 John 4:8), He was giving us gifts like a father does (Matthew 7:11).  He was giving us love and things He had lovingly chosen for each person.  I think this last part was a reference to Jeremiah 29:11.  So, overall, He was giving an abundance of love.

The purse represents identity and tools.  What do we carry around in our purses?  Important things:  identification, keys, etc.  I feel with these purses He was gifting us with identity and purpose and the tools (keys) we need to carry out His Plan.  Though I don’t know what was in each purse, in keeping with the color, most certainly love was one of and probably a main component.

Now, back to the bride – remember I said she wasn’t welcoming.  She was all about the show and the adoration she was going to get from her big reveal.  Spiritually, I think this was a hijacking of a Jezebel’s self-serving intent; but also, I feel like this is a calling for us to join in a revival of the church and the world – to inject love back into the church and the world, to make people feel welcome.  Many don’t.  For a time in my life, I didn’t.  I find it especially exciting that His daughters play an important role.  Women were present at the cross (John 19:25) and used to spread the gospel (John 4:28-30, John 20:11-16) and a virgin was chosen to bring forth our Savior into the world (Luke 1:26-38).

I felt such intense happiness upon awaking.  I pondered this and prayed over this wondering what I should say about this.  I feel like this will be confirmation for some.  And, if you read this and just want to be part of it, something caught my eye in Matthew 7:11 as I was looking up the verse to write this:

If you, then, though you are evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your Father in heaven give good gifts TO THOSE WHO ASK HIM! (NIV)

I say ask.  God can and will use anyone, anywhere – even the passed over, the overlooked, the underestimated…  why not the willing?  Keep yourself open to His voice.  And finally, the thing I heard loudest during my prayer time, accept your gift joyfully.

Until next time, be blessed and thank you for reading.


Springtime Poem: A Celebration of Victory

My personal spring is here.  The clouds of my storm are departing and the Son is shining through.  Like a flower, I will open my petals and let the light warm my face… taking in the beauty of the rainbow and the sweet aroma of the One Who Loves Me Most.  My soul will leap for joy in Your Presence.  My heart will sing songs of love and praise.  I will dance in the spacious place You’ve given me with happiness and gratitude on my lips.  Today I will fall in love with You again, like I did yesterday and like I will tomorrow.